sad

no energy

nothing worth to be happy

cant slept well

nightmare recalled

then you find out you are still standing on the moment of last night

how long have you been looking forward to that

then you tear it up by yourself

you thought you have been to a better place

more and more strong and talent people around you 

but you are still there

back to the original place

no rapid and excellent answers

no 'yes I can' to assumed questions

yeah actually you are not qualified

a person studying marketing

eventually cant promote yourself 

maybe not because you cant 

just because you dont like youself at all