我毫不猶豫地回答，跑去跟我妹睡。

我開始回想，過去我害怕的時候，是誰給我安全感？

還記得我們一起共享同一間房間的時候，如果半夜我睡不著覺，

又開始自己嚇自己時，我都會悄悄爬到上舖，

看著你輕輕地，安穩地吸著奶瓶，睡著；或者是，我一直搖醒你，

甚至幫妳拉開眼皮，要你陪我一起醒著，

可是你都睡太熟，我翻開的眼皮是白眼，

但自然而然，看著你熟睡，我很安心，也慢慢睡著了。

 

以前我常常笑你總模仿我，依賴我的意見，還被我唬得一愣一愣的，

但現在才驚覺，原來你比我勇敢太多了，

明明一起去打子宮頸癌疫苗，哭著出來的竟然是我，

明明一起戴牙套的，想逃避看診的竟然也是我。

妹妹，原來我們相互依賴。

 

快２２歲的姐姐，自己在外才體會到姐妹的真諦，好羞愧。

儘管如此，比起羞愧，我更有難以言喻的感謝。

 

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Younger sister

Before this night, the meaning of "sister" compared with my parents always far less significance and importance for me. From our childhood, we often have many quarrels due to trivial things, for example, without the other's consent, secretly take other things to use or having a difference of opinion, and we began to fight. We attacked each other with great acrimony, even bashes and kicks in the worst case.

I used to think that my sister means nothing to me, if she got something from our parents but I didn’t receive, I would feel aggrieved; if we've done the same thing, but only punished me, I would complain parents, they often said they "you are the older sister, you should put the youngster at the first."

Dog has been barking, never stop weeping and even crying at the outside of hostel. I felt very cranky because I was too scared, so I decided to talk with friends immediately, tried to distract my attention, and freed myself from anxiety.

A friend said that if the same thing happened in Taiwan, how would I do?
I did not hesitate to answer, “Just go to sleep with my sister.”

I began to recall the past, when I was scared, who gave me a sense of security? Remember when we were together to share the same room, if I could not sleep at night, and began to scare myself. I will quietly climbed to the upper berth, look at you sucked on a pacifier gently, peacefully, and the sleeping face; or, I always woke you up, even with the help of opened your eyelids, want you to accompany me awake together. However, you always sleep too heavy, I opened your eyelids and saw you rolled your eyes. But naturally, when I watch you sleeping, I got some relief, and slowly fell asleep.

I used to always make fun of you. “Why do you always imitate my style, and rely on my opinion?” You are my number one fan, but I treated you like a fool.

Last, I find that you would brave much better than me. When we were together to get cervical cancer vaccines, obviously crying out that it is me. When we wore braces to straighten our teeth, and wanted to avoid seeing the doctor that it is me.

Dear Sister, so that's how it is. We are interdependent.

I'm almost 22 years old, and the fact that the true meaning of sisterhood where I'm not at home.

I feel ashamed, but I feel thankful more than I can say.